Today's Thoughts...

A Levesque #61 - Last Rope

 I can't even begin to describe the feelings that I have built up inside of me lately.  This is going to be personal mainly because God gifted me with the ability to not care about your opinion, and this blog isn't for people who know me per se.  It's mainly for my children so they can look and see everything will work out.   NO MATTER WHAT THERE WILL ALWAYS BE HOPE. I've been struggling. Never have I seen such selfishness. Never have I seen so much greed. Never have I seen so much betrayal.  Never have I seen families ripped apart because of ego and pride.   My house and my family will not be torn apart in the process.  We serve the Lord, and no weapon formed against us will prosper.  We are formed on a rock, not sand to blow away when trials come our way.   Somedays will be hard. Shit, somedays are hard. Somedays it will rain. Then, Somedays the sun will shine so bright you'll forget that it was ever raining.  Never give up on those you love.   Pray for them from

A.Levesque #24 - Crying in the Bathroom - My MO

Be Quiet.
Shhh.  Don't say that!
I have heard this my entire life.

I have a gift.  I have the strength to say what other people will not or cannot.

I have a way with people.  I can connect with others and show them there is a way out.  Everyday I get closer to happiness.  I just want to share what is working and how I see it's working.  I have literally been searching for happiness for some time.  Now that I am happy, maybe I can help you get there too.

Not only can I do that

I can do one thing that seems almost impossible for others.  I can talk about my "lessons" (we will use that loosely) without caring if you judge me.  Since I have been writing for the public, people cannot believe what I am sharing and they don't understand why.

I definitely have an opinion, but that is all it is.  I try to understand.  In the long run, I am really just trying to align myself with my goal of getting people to change in order to make themselves happy.  

I was completely surrounded by miserable people.  My friends, family, and even my kids.  Personally, I was dying inside.  I pulled the strength from somewhere and started to make changes.  I started aligning myself with what I truly wanted in life.  Every change I have made has made my life better and better.  I was not even close to being happy even 6 months ago.

Six months ago, I was sitting in my bathroom screaming and pulling out hair not wanting to do it anymore.  None of it.  All of it was just falling apart.  

Now that I have found mine, I want to help people find theirs.  I don't want to chase people down and force things on them.  I want people who are unhappy to find maybe a glimpse of hope that they can do it too.  That is why I do everything I do.

You can talk about your problems without fear.

Find the people who will listen to you without judgment.  
Even if you can only find one. I have personally found that the older generation is where you need to go to find these people.  I have always been friends with older people, they really do have wisdom.  I am not saying that if you are under 50 you can't listen without judgment.  

Make sure the person you do find (no matter their age) tells you what they did, not what to do.  Let me repeat that.  Make sure they don't tell you what to do.   
That is not what you need.  What you need to do is learn. You can only find your purpose and what you are supposed to be doing if you listen to yourself.  

The atmosphere of nonjudgment is necessary for change.   

Standing in the bathroom of the restaurant I worked in, I just started crying because of the weight of my life.  I just couldn't keep from crying.  Who cares anyway, I was all alone.  Then the door opened, and there she was.  She kind of caught me.  She wrapped her arms around me.  The only thing she said to me is, "What Do You Need."  I did not know her well.  I knew her though.  That event had a profound impact on me.

She will never know how much that meant to me.  She held me just for a few minutes, and then I wiped my tears.  I didn't really need anything.  I ended up making changes but her kindness changed me.  She checked on me a few times when she would come in with her husband.

When you find a person that will not judge you cherish them.  These people are part of your team.  They will help you to talk through your problems and help you.  

Keep moving forward.  Find people to help you get where you want to be.  

I only share to help.  
I only say what I think others are too afraid to say.  
I am always raw and honest. 
Be back at it tomorrow.  

Love You

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