Today's Thoughts...

A Levesque #61 - Last Rope

 I can't even begin to describe the feelings that I have built up inside of me lately.  This is going to be personal mainly because God gifted me with the ability to not care about your opinion, and this blog isn't for people who know me per se.  It's mainly for my children so they can look and see everything will work out.   NO MATTER WHAT THERE WILL ALWAYS BE HOPE. I've been struggling. Never have I seen such selfishness. Never have I seen so much greed. Never have I seen so much betrayal.  Never have I seen families ripped apart because of ego and pride.   My house and my family will not be torn apart in the process.  We serve the Lord, and no weapon formed against us will prosper.  We are formed on a rock, not sand to blow away when trials come our way.   Somedays will be hard. Shit, somedays are hard. Somedays it will rain. Then, Somedays the sun will shine so bright you'll forget that it was ever raining.  Never give up on those you love.   Pray for them from

A.Levesque #45 - Hey, There...

Man, How have all of you been in the internet world?  I haven't been in the mix for so long.  The last article was lame.  I didn't even have a good picture.  It's time to get a little busy doing some other things besides laying around crying all the damn time. 

So did you see my amazing septic installation on my facebook?  Big shout out again to my friends over there at Thumb Septic, Caro MI.  They did such an amazing job, I am very happy about it.  Anyone who needs work done, I definitely cannot praise this company enough.  They have made my life a lot safer.  The patience they had in helping me make it through the entire process from start to finish, the whole year, was so much better just by doing what they do.  I also saved like $100 on my electric bill because the sub pump isn't pumping disgusting water all over my yard all day. 
Step One Complete.

Also listed in the paper was an article about a grant from Lapeer/Tuscola from Habitat from Humanity, if you are reading from my area and need some help I would definitely recommend that you get signed up.  It is held in the month of  January 2020.  If you are needing home repairs in this area that qualify I highly suggest you get your butts in there, maybe we could carpool :-)

I decided in the last few days, that I need to keep blogging.  
It is hard to put yourself out there in the world.
It really is, but you have to keep going for it.  
Giving up is not an option, even when it feels like it is all you have.  

Look at where I was a year ago.  

Certainly not where I am right now.  When I made the decision to go loud with my house, which was not easy.  Absolutely scared as hell.  But at the end of the day, it was so wonderful.  
Because of all of the responses I have accomplished so much.  I am constantly being pushed towards the people I need to find, resources that I didn't know existed.  Some things are all figured out yet, and I have plenty of options but I wouldn't of if I would have kept it all to myself.  It would have destroyed even more than it already did.  

I wanted to give up when my husband had to go to the hospital last December for three weeks.  I could barely even keep my bearing together.

I wanted to give up when I wrecked my John's truck. and I had to drive my rear-wheel-drive car back and forth for a month in the crazy snow.  Talk about driving.  I know for a fact people are out scared as shit out there in their vehicles because they are trying their hardest to keep their heads above water.  Guess what though, I had an amazing angel sent to me that was completely happy driving my baby back in forth in exchange for baked goods.  Absolutely saved my mental health more than a few times. 

I wanted to give up when I sucked at keeping my head together because I was failing at everything.  

But I want to share something with anyone who will read it.  
I reached out.  Reach out even if you don't know what to say. 

You cannot fight any battles all by yourself.  
The more you open up the more solutions will find their way to you.  
Do not be scared.  

Make sure to pray like crazy.
I know that you think that people will judge you.
They probably do, but who cares if you don't.
If they do get away from them.  Space creates a wonderful bumper to find yourself.  

Talk to someone new.
Go out and meet people.
There are great people out there. 
Really great people out there.
People who have been through the same struggles.
People who can help you.  People whom you can help.

You may think you have nothing to offer but you do.
You have something they need too.

Tell them what you are thinking.
You are not alone.
The sooner it comes out the better it will be.
You will be okay.
Everything will work out.
As long as you never give up.

So many people before me and after me will say the exact same thing, but I am making sure I am one that says it, too.  

I love my online community.  
I couldn't live without you somedays.  
I don't care what people think.  
I find strength through your stories to tackle my own problems. 
I find value from almost every interaction on my page.  Unless you never say or do anything, creepos lol.

Thanks for always hanging out with me on my phone, my people. 

Love Your Faces.
Make sure to come find me on social.  
Instagram - @ashleylevesque1

Have a wonderful weekend, hope to not be gone for 5 months. 


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